Today is another one of those days where you forcably tell yourself to wake up even though you are lying there on your nice soft bed and hugging a pillow tight *dreaming of whatever your mind desires to dream of*... Awoken by the annoying beeping of your alarm clock, you wake juss to drag your lazy ass to work, juss so you can make money.... MONEY that the city's bills & taxes eat up every payday, along with that the local restaurants & fast food stores....

I've been working for a year now as a security guard and there's the same ol' shit different day routine. But the bugging part is that sleeping alone in a bet that you are used of hold someone other that a damn pillow, yeah thats me I grown so used to holding someone special by myside, even though sometimes we argue at our bedside but hey loves not easy, you learn to live with it the nagging, the crankyness that you sometimes blurt out at each other, unknowingly and unintentionally you do it, yeah i know you catch yourself doing it sometimes noones perfect, thats why god sent us his son jesus remember?

But aside that let me get to the point, we all work to make a living right? without a job life would be hard as I hear so many adults say. But yeah times I juss want to quit and move away from all this drama and toxins out to where I was raised, raised to hunt off the land for food and as for light we had candles or a gas powered generator juss to keep the freezers running, bathrooms? yeah we had hunnybuckets or outhouses *kugviqs*. entertainment? board games, dice games or card games even out walking around was entertainment enought see all the animals in plain sight, or hearing the cries of other animals or the breeze of the wind blowing gently through the trees and off that you smell the freshness of the all natural scent of the pine trees and alders...

Haha, actually I sound like an author of a book lol that's funny... But I miss my hunny Camille everything about her and alongside that note our beautiful baby Gabrielle who has a lil bit of the both of us inherrited inside her, our attitude our looks and even our many other un-named things... Man I miss them both I love you both my family, soon we wi'll be together again hopefully nothing wi'll break us apart whether it will be drugs or alcohol or maybe even another of the opposite sex who tries to take one of us for themselves lol, I feel confident that we wi'll be live through most things cause life is just one big lesson to be learned. how did the wise become wise? learn from thier mistakes, they tell us what to do and what not to do? why? because they been there before and they dont want us to make the same mistakes that they did, or in other words maybe they didnt have others telling them this and that and juss did what they wanted...

But hahaha enough of my blabbering, what was I suppose to make a point about again? lol everythings all mixed up... lol

Anywhooo to all who have to thime to read this lol, hope you have a great day and luv n peace, to ya'll ohh and if you are reading this camille I love you bonehead....